I Shouldn't Be in Love with You

If I fell in love, it was by accident,

By a means beyond my control.

I keep talking myself out of this feeling.

I didn’t mean to feel this way

For so damn long.

You’d think I’d move on, get over it,

But even if I get close,

I manage to fall back in

As if the quicksand only holds on

Tighter, stronger.

I don’t know how to get out of this mess

But I do know and always have,

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

I shouldn’t want to kiss you,

Have you hold me, or look deep

In my eyes— the way only you do.

I shouldn’t want to need you,

Have you be the one I tell my secrets to,

Let my cry without question.

I shouldn’t want your future,

But when I picture mine,

Now you are there in shining gold

At the center,

The only one who seems to make me laugh,

Feel loved, and happy.

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

But here I am, so in love with—

You, or some idea of you,

Where you fill that gap

Answering all my questions,

Becoming the biggest part of a life

I can only picture with you.

How do I get this feeling erased?

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

How do I forget about this heart?

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

But something won’t let you go.

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

Fate, true love, stubbornness.

I shouldn’t be in love with you.

Yet, here I am, so in love.